Gold Huaraches
August 27, 2011
The other day I was speaking to my lovely friend Carolyn Murphy (opensky.com/carolynmurphy) about how conflicted I feel at times. How I have an identity crisis about who I am. I fluctuate between wanting to be a pioneer woman in the woods of Northern California, to wanting to go for a gourmet breakfast and shop for fashionable shoes. This split has been haunting me as long as I can remember. I used to think it was because I come from two cultures - Persian and American. Then I thought it was due to being trained as an actor, and therefore always being able to assimilate easily. Carolyn made me feel better by admitting she suffers from the same dilemma. Do you have similar internal conflicts? Yesterday I went to Ojai for a day trip and discovered a refreshing waterfall. I had to leave my shoes at the basin for the trek up was slippery, and my gold huaraches wouldn't cut it. On the way down I saw my shoes resting at the foot of the hill, and realized that this is who I am in a nutshell! Huaraches are Mexican peasant shoes, but in gold leather they have a fashion twist to them. I then came to peace thinking if they make gold huaraches (thank you Cynthia Vincent), there must be lots of other people trying to balance two worlds. Perhaps our identities aren't black and white. Perhaps we can be a boho gypsy one day, and a strict conservative mother the next.
This week may be a favorite for me. We make butter from raw cream, discover gorgeous tye-dye linens, dance into Beau and Aero, find non toxic sunscreens, and visit with Julia Butterfly Hill a true green goddess fighting the good fight to save our planet. Bless you all . . .